God Kept Saying “No”

I prayed for a lot of things,
I prayed for my job to get better.
I prayed for stability.
I prayed for a breath of fresh air.

I prayed for God to save my marriage.

I prayed for God to soften my wife’s heart.

I lost my job.

I sold my house.

I moved three times.

My depression and anxiety nearly killed me.

I filed for divorce.

My wife hates me.

I prayed for a lot of things.

I didn’t get any of them.

For a time, I have despaired.

Why won’t God answer my prayer?

Why won’t God give me what I want?

At least Job had a job.

Instead, God gave me something more important,

Something I never once asked for.

My self-respect.

Thank you, God, for answering a prayer I never made.

Thank you, God, for blessings I never wanted.